one too many?

Ever wish you could freeze a moment in time? Right now my boys and my husband are my absolute life and there are moments throughout the day that Hudson will say something absolutely hilarious and grown up or where Brody will smile that new two front teeth grin with the big gap in between and I just wish I could freeze that moment and take it all in and never forget it. Brody is standing by himself all the time now and I am just waiting for him to realize that he can actually take steps from that position. He is going to have his first birthday a month from tuesday! Hudson is going to be going to preschool in seven months and that is unbelievable to me. He is so excited when he can spend the night at dama and papa's and he can articulate every single thought that he has. He is getting into watching movies together and I just knew this time would come but I never realized how fast. I feel like going from one child to two was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life but I also feel most victorious in it. Right now I am waivering back and forth on whether or not we want to have another child. I am by no means considering pregnancy at this time but I am the type of person who must plan ahead. Three? The thought of having three is overwhelming to me. I have this fear that if i have three children to get bundled up in these cold winters in NY that I will be a prisoner to my own home and never go anywhere because it would be that much harder. I would want to wait till Brody is more independent but not too long so that I completely have to start over with everything (now isnt that contradictory?) thats my struggle! I also want to work more eventually and when my children are in school, I will be able to do that. One more child will delay that but at the same time I just cant put that period at the end of our family. Andy, Tristyn, Hudson, Brody and...sounds so much better. I guess I will just have to get on my knees about that one :0) and soon! any opinions? I would love to hear!

Brand New Day

Do you ever feel like life just flies by and you dont know where the time went? 2010 has been reminding me daily to enjoy each day to its fullest and to really take in the time that I have with my family because life is passing us by so quickly. Next month Brody will be 1 year old and I really dont know how that happened so fast. His personality is polar opposite of Hudson. I thought Hudson was a strong willed child...little did I know, the Lord was just preparing me for Brody :0) I dont take it at all in a bad way, in fact, I think its wonderful that they are so different in personality. Brody picks up any object he can find and puts it up to his ear to say
"hellooo" (which really sounds like "ahhhh") the other day it was his jelly sandwich...eww. But Hudson really got a kick out of it. Hudson is a wonderful big brother, setting aside the few times he has tried to tackle him thinking that he is big enough to defend himself. I love having boys...they love their mommies soo much and I really will miss these days.

I usually dont make new years resolutions because I am not good at sticking with it! This year I am just making it a goal for me to cook at home more often. Now that we have completed our kitchen, I actually enjoy being in my kitchen!

My dad has also opened a new restaurant which has kept our family very busy but there is nothing better than seeing my fathers dreams become reality. He is an amazing chef and I could not be prouder. I need to post more often too...I know :) Bye for now...