Who am I blogging for...I mean, who really reads this? I guess I will never know. From here on out I am going to use this blog as a place to vent and ramble. Everytime I sit down to post, I have a hard time thinking about something that is worthwhile. So for now...I am sitting on my big comfy couch covered up in a veggie tales fleece blanket and I can honestly say that I love life right now. The weather is a bit chilly at times but the smell of fall is amazing. I love the beautiful leaves changing color and the pumpkins and the apples and the trips to the pumpkin farm. Work is going well and cheerleading is taking up just enough time to get me out of the house once and a while. The boys are thriving and growing bigger and bigger every second. Hudson is becoming an absolutley delightful little boy...and a mighty prayer warrior might I add. This boy can PRAY! He has already asked Jesus into his heart (as much as his little mind can understand it at 4 years old). Even our dinner prayers are blessed with some "come into our lives Lord" and "please make me always do good things and not act bad" and "live in my heart Lord" etc. He is just adorable. For the first time tonight as I prayed for him before bed, he was agreeing with me in prayer; nodding his head and saying "mmm hmmm". It was precious! And I have to add that he tells daddy that he wants mommy to pray because I'm the best prayer girl. :) What a compliment to get from your son! I thank the Lord for his compassionate heart. He still says he wants to be a missionary. Preschool is going great for him as well. He is having a blast!
Brody is doing wonderful as well although him and Hudson are like night and day! Brody is sweet...but dont make him mad! lol. As the little brother he is going to make himself known! :) But thats not a bad thing...he is actually HILARIOUS! My mom and I always have great "brody" stories! He is seriously funny! A little comedian and I just love it! I love that he is so different from Hudson and I will continue to encourage that as much as I can and channel it into a positive direction :) I think that when we come across a "strong willed child" sometime we can quash their "leader" type attributes and actually do more harm than good. We will see!
I have to say that something that the Lord has hard pressed on my heart lately is Adoption. I feel this overwhelming desire to adopt a child. I ordered some bubble bath and roll-on bath paint from Avon recently and tonight I busted them out for my boys. They love bath time but tonight was extra special. Hudson got out and said "man...that was a pretty bubbly bath!" It just made me think...some children NEVER get to have a bubble bath. How sad is that??? Something as simple as a bubble bath and there are children who would be lucky just to have a bath. It hurts my heart so much and I know thats the Lord speaking to me. I can help one child...I can have my girl at the same time. Then the selfish (Satan) voice inside me says "but can you handle NEVER being pregnant again?" and I seriously dont know the answer to that. That is my biggest struggle. We dont want 4 children. We couldn't adequately provide for four children and we dont have room for four. Three is perfect. So what do I do? I am listening to the Lord...and patiently waiting on that one.
I think that is my stream of consciousness for tonight...and it felt good to get that off my chest! Stay tuned...
1 comment:
I didn't realize that you had posted on here recently! My bad!
Your boys sound so precious. It's amazing how spiritual these preschoolers of ours can be sometimes, isn't it? I am reminded of why God wants us to have faith like children when I see Brooke discussing matters of the Lord.
I'm sure you will make the best decision about adoption. I know how you feel because my biggest hold up with adoption was always the pregnancy factor. If God has truly laid it on your heart then I'm sure that He will give you the peace to be able to deal with those strong emotions!
I'll be checking back more often:-)
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