It's bitterSWEET

Well my baby boy is finally completely done breastfeeding and I am so proud that we made it this far! He was to the point where he would only nurse in the middle of the night for comfort but it was really interrupting his sleep habits so I saw it best to put an end to it.  Basically when he woke up in the night and wanted to nurse, I would give him a sippy cup of water instead. He would take a drink and then usually go right back to sleep! Occasionally I would say to him "breastfeeding all done/gone" and he understood.  Within a few days of putting and end to breastfeeding, he began to sleep through the night in his crib without waking up! It's amazing! He is on a 2 night streak so we will see if it lasts but I really hope so! He is getting so big so fast.

Hudson is going through this "baby talk" stage and it really gets annoying fast! I really dont have the patience for it because I know that he can talk properly if he tries but I guess he is just wanting attention. He loves the weather lately and wearing shorts is his favorite part! I cant believe in just a few short months he is going to go to preschool. Amazing.

This past weekend me, Andy and the boys drove two and a half hours to purchase a 2007 Nissan Quest which I absolutely love and have been researching for the past 3 or 4 months. My personality is such that I cant stop searching until I know I got one of the best deals available. It is so annoying but to say the least I am NOT an impulse buyer at all. We drove all that way, filled out some paperwork and the are going to deliver it to us tomorrow. I am sooooo excited! Just to have more room to put stuff and be able to take more people with me when I go places. I know that the gas is going to really stink but I really see a future with this van.  I picture lots of road trips and vacations with our family. I think the most important thing you can do for your kids is create memories.  I was ready for a vacation, like...yesterday!

I will update with pictures soon :0)

My #1 Job

My boss approached me and asked me if I could work more hours because our work load is so high. Money wise, it has definitely crossed my mind. But then I think about my boys and no amount of money is worth it. I  am trying really hard to make it work because maybe there is some sort of compromise and if there is, Im going to find it! He has always said that I can work from home but in the past I have found that to be a very difficult thing when kids need my attention or there is dishes or laundry to do.  Now, working from home seems like the best plan. My sister will be home in June so I will start taking on one more day a week at the office and then set up my "virtual office" for the rest of the time. It is what I have to do and at least I will be home with my boys. That is what is most important. The best part about it is that I can do my work whenever I want to: Naptime, evenings when Andy gets home, night...etc. The bad part is that I would need a new desktop to make this a reality since the desktop we have now is slower than molases!

In a way I am excited to work more and make some extra money. I just hope and pray that it will all work out with the boys. I never want to take them to a daycare center. Not that daycare centers are bad at all...in fact there are wonderful daycare centers out there...it's just not me. Hudson will be starting preschool this year too so this wont be for forever. Just until my boys get into school.  I thank the Lord that my job is needed and that my boss has offered this to me at a time when the economy is so bad. I am thankful 100% for that. I am just the type of person who has to have a schedule and a routine. Right now this plan sounds a little chaotic in my head and it is freaking me out a bit but hey...Rome wasnt built in a day, right?

Not So Sure...

I sit here typing and my baby boy is in his crib SCREAMING and CRYING. I hate it. Every little bit in me wants to just go grab him but I know it is not going to help him in the long run.  Up until lastnight he would go to bed fine by himself without a peep! Not so sure what is going on here but I am convinced it is just a stage. Lastnight after letting him cry for an hour (with small intervals where I would check on him and tell him that it is night night time) Andy went up and it must have broke his heart because down the stairs he came, baby in hand. I was relaxing on the couch and he placed Brody in my arms and he never opened his eyes again till morning! So precious. Somehow through all of this Hudson is sleeping soundly. We will get through it...but being a mommy is difficult at times. I really look forward to the time when he is two or three and can explain to me what is wrong!  On top of everything, Brody has a very strong-willed personality. He will NOT give up. It has been half an hour now...and he is still going strong!

Anyways on a happier note the weather is getting warmer as time goes on and I absolutely love it! We are already planning out some landscaping for the outside and flowers and screening in our back patio...I just love the warm weather and we just dont get enough of it in NY, thats for sure! And with the warm weather comes overtime for Andy as the college preps for graduation! It makes for long days for me but luckily its only for a month or so.

Ok...Im going to see what else I can do to pass time while he cries and cries...UGH! Please just give in Brody :0( You are tearing mommys heart out!!