Audience of 1

Who am I blogging for...I mean, who really reads this? I guess I will never know. From here on out I am going to use this blog as a place to vent and ramble. Everytime I sit down to post, I have a hard time thinking about something that is worthwhile.  So for now...I am sitting on my big comfy couch covered up in a veggie tales fleece blanket and I can honestly say that I love life right now. The weather is a bit chilly at times but the smell of fall is amazing. I love the beautiful leaves changing color and the pumpkins and the apples and the trips to the pumpkin farm. Work is going well and cheerleading is taking up just enough time to get me out of the house once and a while. The boys are thriving and growing bigger and bigger every second. Hudson is becoming an absolutley delightful little boy...and a mighty prayer warrior might I add. This boy can PRAY! He has already asked Jesus into his heart (as much as his little mind can understand it at 4 years old). Even our dinner prayers are blessed with some "come into our lives Lord" and "please make me always do good things and not act bad" and "live in my heart Lord" etc. He is just adorable. For the first time tonight as I prayed for him before bed, he was agreeing with me in prayer; nodding his head and saying "mmm hmmm". It was precious! And I have to add that he tells daddy that he wants mommy to pray because I'm the best prayer girl. :) What a compliment to get from your son! I thank the Lord for his compassionate heart. He still says he wants to be a missionary. Preschool is going great for him as well. He is having a blast!
Brody is doing wonderful as well although him and Hudson are like night and day! Brody is sweet...but dont make him mad! lol. As the little brother he is going to make himself known! :) But thats not a bad thing...he is actually HILARIOUS! My mom and I always have great "brody" stories! He is seriously funny!  A little comedian and I just love it! I love that he is so different from Hudson and I will continue to encourage that as much as I can and channel it into a positive direction :) I think that when we come across a "strong willed child" sometime we can quash their "leader" type attributes and actually do more harm than good. We will see!
I have to say that something that the Lord has hard pressed on my heart lately is Adoption. I feel this overwhelming desire to adopt a child. I ordered some bubble bath and roll-on bath paint from Avon recently and tonight I busted them out for my boys. They love bath time but tonight was extra special. Hudson got out and said "man...that was a pretty bubbly bath!" It just made me think...some children NEVER get to have a bubble bath. How sad is that??? Something as simple as a bubble bath and there are children who would be lucky just to have a bath. It hurts my heart so much and I know thats the Lord speaking to me. I can help one child...I can have my girl at the same time. Then the selfish (Satan) voice inside me says "but can you handle NEVER being pregnant again?" and I seriously dont know the answer to that. That is my biggest struggle. We dont want 4 children. We couldn't adequately provide for four children and we dont have room for four. Three is perfect. So what do I do? I am listening to the Lord...and patiently waiting on that one.
I think that is my stream of consciousness for tonight...and it felt good to get that off my chest! Stay tuned...

My Ordinary Life...

Brody Jaxon Update:

Brody is now 17 months old and he is the sweetest little boy that I could have ever been entrusted with. I can't believe how much he has accomplished in seventeen short months! He walks and talks and keeps up with his brother really well these days. Everyday he says more and more words...and believe me, he makes himself heard! I guess that's what it is about the second child. He  has always had his brother to compete with for our attention. Although I find that whenever Hudson isn't around, Brody is lost. He just doesn't know what to do with himself! They fight over toys...I am actually hearing screaming at this very second. But I am always confident that Brody can stand his ground. He isn't the type of child to just get run over by other kids...he will show them who's boss! I admire that character trait in him because I believe it is something that I lack. Of course I will need to shape that trait so it doesn't get out of hand, lol. On the other hand he also has this sweet personality that makes me just want to eat him up! He is and always will be a true mommy's boy :) Darn!

Hudson's Update:

Hudson has matured so much this past year. My little boy will turn four in August and I just have no idea where the time went. He will be starting pre-school...amazing how time flies! Hudson is at such a fun age right now. We have been so busy lately but I always try to take time to have a "date night" with him, just the two of us. We are long overdue for a date...when the time comes, I'm taking him to the movies! Just about two weeks ago, he learned to ride his bike without training wheels! That was such a big feat for him. He just kept saying "Are you proud of me, mommy?" Always looking for our approval...typical first born (I know from experience). He is sweet and an absolute WONDERFUL big brother! He always is concerned about Brody and hates when Brody has to be disciplined. He loves Jesus and is constantly asking questions. The other day he asked me why Jesus died on the cross?  So I asked him why he thought. He said..."He died to save us." Which is correct but of course I could tell that he wanted more of an explanation than that. So I went on to explain that before Jesus died on the cross, people couldn't just pray to God for forgiveness of their sins. Then explained what a sin was and the conversation just went on and on and on. It was such a blessing to be able to have that conversation with my son. It brings so much more clarity to my christian walk. It's amazing that we technically are teaching our children....but they teach us so much more.

As for an update for our family in general...as you can see, I haven't blogged in FOREVER. I have been working more at the law firm and have been bartending at my dad's restaurant a lot in the evenings. Our lives are busy...I like to be busy but I wish that we could live a bit simpler. Maybe one day :) Cheerleading will start soon and my days at the restaurant will dwindle. I just try not to think too far ahead or it's a bit overwhelming. Andy and I are going to a wedding in Boston this weekend and I am truly excited to get away, just the two of us for a few nights. Not sure how Brody will be but my mom is the next best thing to me so I am going to try very hard not to worry about him and enjoy myself.

I guess that's it for the Ahart's at this moment! Maybe by some form of miracle I will begin to write on here more often ;)

It's bitterSWEET

Well my baby boy is finally completely done breastfeeding and I am so proud that we made it this far! He was to the point where he would only nurse in the middle of the night for comfort but it was really interrupting his sleep habits so I saw it best to put an end to it.  Basically when he woke up in the night and wanted to nurse, I would give him a sippy cup of water instead. He would take a drink and then usually go right back to sleep! Occasionally I would say to him "breastfeeding all done/gone" and he understood.  Within a few days of putting and end to breastfeeding, he began to sleep through the night in his crib without waking up! It's amazing! He is on a 2 night streak so we will see if it lasts but I really hope so! He is getting so big so fast.

Hudson is going through this "baby talk" stage and it really gets annoying fast! I really dont have the patience for it because I know that he can talk properly if he tries but I guess he is just wanting attention. He loves the weather lately and wearing shorts is his favorite part! I cant believe in just a few short months he is going to go to preschool. Amazing.

This past weekend me, Andy and the boys drove two and a half hours to purchase a 2007 Nissan Quest which I absolutely love and have been researching for the past 3 or 4 months. My personality is such that I cant stop searching until I know I got one of the best deals available. It is so annoying but to say the least I am NOT an impulse buyer at all. We drove all that way, filled out some paperwork and the are going to deliver it to us tomorrow. I am sooooo excited! Just to have more room to put stuff and be able to take more people with me when I go places. I know that the gas is going to really stink but I really see a future with this van.  I picture lots of road trips and vacations with our family. I think the most important thing you can do for your kids is create memories.  I was ready for a vacation, like...yesterday!

I will update with pictures soon :0)